While you read this, you should totally listen to Sweet Dreams by the Eurythmics or Beyonce, because those are the songs that have been playing in my head as I think about this post.
I am no psychologist, and I don’t pretend to know what dreams mean, yet, dreams fascinate me. Particularly, my own dreams. For as long as I can remember, I’ve had no issues recalling parts of dreams I’ve had; something, I have come to understand, is not exactly common. I wish I could say this was obviously the beginning of a modern day fantasy novel, but there might be some questions about my sanity.
So, what exactly is the definition of a dream? Or a nightmare?
- Dream: a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
- Nightmare: a terrifying dream in which the dreamer experiences feelings of helplessness, extreme anxiety, sorrow, etc.
Apparently, the difference here is the feeling we experience while dreaming – but what if you have a dream where you can obviously feel it’s horrifying, but it’s not a nightmare?
I’m guessing that’s where we delve into different types of dreams, like wet/sex dreams, dreams where you’re chased, etc, etc. Here’s some great info about dreams, as well as a link to a site where apparently you can keep a dream journal! Pretty cool!
Yet, my true question is: why do I remember so easily? Some of these dreams I’ve had, I don’t want to remember, and yet I can recall them incredibly well. It’s come to the point where I’ve neglected my own dream journal. (What’s the point of having a dream journal if you don’t use it? I don’t know.)
What kind of dreams you remember? Do you keep a dream journal? Do you enjoy dreaming?
We all know this feeling; that instant when you realize that the future is simultaneously here yet far away; when you realize that there are so many potential outcomes. No wonder there are people who try to only live day by day.
- Fear: a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid; concern or anxiety.
- Unknown: a thing, influence, area, factor, or person that is unknown; not known; not within the range of one’s knowledge, experience, or understanding; strange; unfamiliar.
- Panic: a sudden overwhelming fear, with or without cause, that produces hysterical or irrational behavior,and that often spreads quickly through a group of persons or animals.
- Nervousness: highly excitable; unnaturally or acutely uneasy or apprehensive.
- Helplessness: deprived of strength or power; powerless; incapacitated.
- Future: time that is to be or come hereafter; something that will exist or happen in time to come.
Right at this moment, I am fearing the unknown. I am fearing my future; panicking; feeling nervous. I’m making plans and that scares me so much. In October, I’m planning on moving from Bend, where I’ve spent the last five years, to a completely new environment in Portland. I’ll be living with my friend, I’ll probably be working two jobs to make ends meet, I’m going to be three hours away from my immediate family. I’m so scared and frightened of this development.
I understand I need it; I’m a timid person who needs to get out and expand. But there are so many things I’m used to, like immediate access to my mother and father. I’m leaving my dog behind; I’ve literally been crying over this for the past few days, and everyone tells me ‘Well, you can’t take her with you just yet. You’ll have to get established first.’ I get it, I do, but I don’t think anyone truly understands how much Sadie means to me. I’m more dependent on her than she is on me.
And yeah, I’ll be closer to my two best friends in the world; I’ll be in the city I want to live in, which is awesome. But… what do I do? How do I do it? Am I going to be able to do it? I feel pressed up against a wall and I’m scared. I’m so, so, scared. I’m trying hard not to let it get to me, yet I have to be honest – this is making my anxiety shoot through the roof. There are so many things I need; how am I going to function in this new environment?
I read a book recently, called the Secret. It’s a self-help book, and for me, it’s helped. But as I was reading, my mind formulated the thought, with help from the book and probably several other things, “Are the words rich and wealth really synonymous? Do they mean the same thing?”
- Rich: having wealth or great possessions; abundantly supplied with resources, means, or funds; wealthy; abounding in natural resources; having wealth or valuable resources
- Wealth: having great wealth; rich; affluent: a wealthy person; a wealthy nation; characterized by, pertaining to, or suggestive of wealth
Honestly, with a textbook definition like that, they are. They are clearly synonyms. Yet I can’t help but feel that the only thing these two words have in common is the “abundance” factor. Maybe I’m being weird here, but I think wealth isn’t just about money. I think it encompasses love, knowledge, money, and all that jazz. It’s about life. You don’t have to have just money to feel wealthy. Rich on the other hand .. while people say “rich in this or that”, I believe rich is just a term for having a ton of money.
I could be the only one who has this train of thought, but I wanted to share that today.
- Excite: to provoke; to awaken; to stir up the emotions of
One of my favorite things to do is look up words, and when I see that I have appropriately used that random word in a sentence, well, let’s just say I’m proud. I mentally pump my chest out in pride, because, hey, I’m good. I’m… excited. Excited, though a word we use in everyday life, is a good word. It’s a strong word. It has different connotations depending on the situation, and when I think about it, I can’t help but notice how… pernicious and angry it can sound. “He stirred their emotions; he excited them with the idea that the person who lives in the cottage in the woods was a wǣrloga. And it was blood they wanted.”
- Pernicious: harmful; ruinous; evil
- Wǣrloga: the word that warlock is based on; oath-breaker
Yep, these are some wonderful words, too. The idea that ‘warlock’, generally considered a male witch, comes from a word that means “oath-breaker” is pretty neat. I don’t know why, exactly, but it does.
Back to excitement. One of the things that has caused me a fair amount of emotional stirring up is the Project Imagina10n campaign. These photos are amazing. Check them out, and see if there’s one or two that provokes you! 😉 It definitely makes me want to rollick through fields and take some pretty gosh darn awesome pictures myself.
We need more words in our vocabulary. Have I introduced you to my favorite word yet? Here it is:
- Flabbergast: to overcome with surprise and bewilderment; astound.
Now here is my favorite word in a sentence: She was flabbergasted to learn that I enjoyed microwave popcorn cold.
Here’s another good F word:
- Frustration: a feeling of dissatisfaction, often accompanied by anxiety or depression, resulting from unfulfilled needs or unresolved problems.
A sentence: I was full of frustration because I couldn’t express exactly how I felt about this certain topic.
And here’s three words that we may not use everyday, but we recognize.
- Religion: a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, especially when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing amoral code governing the conduct of human affairs.
- Sect: any group, party, or faction united by a specific doctrine or under a doctrinal leader.
- Cult: a group or sect bound together by veneration of the same thing, person, ideal, etc.; a particular system of religious worship, especially with reference to its rites and ceremonies; a group having a sacred ideology and a set of rites centering around their sacred symbols.
Here are some sentences: I dislike religion. I believe it is a mainstream cult. I wonder if every faith isn’t different, but just a sect of one main idea that each religion has changed and manifested to make it so radically different from each other one.
So. There’s a reason behind this. It’s about the shooting in Wisconsin at the Sikh temple. I… Don’t have a current affiliation with any religion or faith, since my spirituality has become something I need to think about and find about, but I know that I’ll hold Christian values that I was raised with, no matter what. Or maybe they’re my values. But I believe in tolerance and acceptance. So it’s saddening to read about people who have been killed because of something they believe in (I’m assuming. They’re now saying that the shooter, an ex-military man, may be a white supremacist), probably because some idiot thought that his way is the only way of thinking.
I would like to take a moment of silence for the people who were murdered. I would like to take a moment of silence for anyone who has been a victim, deceased and survivors alike, of a hate crime. A moment of silence for the people who have suffered for what they believe in, what they accept, what they support. A moment of silence for the people who are oppressed. A moment of silence, please, for the fact that in the United States, a country built on the idea to celebrate differences, we still have people who refuse to accept others, no matter what. Thank you.